A beautiful man

You rarely meet a beautiful man. Most are at the most handsome. Or just nice. Or just have great personalities.




You don’t believe me? Look in the mirror. Look in your notes. Look at your friends. Look at you!

There’s an uncommon blend of beauty and brains. Of charm and toughness. Of humble and pride. Of subtleness and loudness. Of a child and a man.









She’s brutal.

She’s heartless.



She leaves with bold strides.

With a haughty shoulder.

She came, she conquered, she left.

Do not hold on to her. She’s got spikes.

Her benevolence ends with convenience.

Or am I wrong.

Is she really love or is she just me?



That’s how I have felt for the most part of the last 3 years.


I just realized this.

I do things for people. I meet needs to fill the void I feel.

The smiles and thank you’ only go so far.

I know it is good to help people. But I realize it would never make me whole.

I need to be whole on my own.

I will be fine. I know.

I’m glad I now know that I need to find me and be happy with the me that I find or do something about that me if I don’t like it.

Watch this space!

Starting a journey to finding me. To being whole.

Love, Keji

Girl in bleh

I am very emotional. I know. I am somewhat confusing as well. Heck I confuse myself. I feel like I’m moving backwards even though my steps seem forward. I want to explode. I overthink things. I’m stuck in my emotions. I loose control of myself, my emotions and logical reasoning. I get anxious.

I cut myself with a glass yesterday. No. I did not try to kill myself as that would be extreme. I cut myself because I was anxious. I hate to feel locked out. I want to know what’s going on. Being in the dark is frustrating. Now I don’t care much about what happens in everyone’s

life although some gbegborun won’t hurt. But I want to know why the one I care about is hurting. It’s expected right?

I swear I totally get when guys say women are complicated and they can’t understand us. I can’t understand myself.

I am probably putting the cart before the horse….but I needed to let out.




She that never was. Ours. An expression of a bond that would be experienced with none else!

Tiwa. I miss you already! You brought the deepest smile to his face. You got his heart beating faster than even I could.

I wish you were. You made his every reality fade. You placed him on a high at each thought of you. You made him cry (and I thought I was the only one that had the strings to his heart! 🙂 ). Tiwa, you were already daddys’ girl.

He never pronounced your name with the proper accent, but it did not matter. He pronounced it just right because all that mattered was that you heard his voice!

You never were. But you are. I see how he would spoil you. I see you jumping into his arms! I see the joy you put in his heart! I see the love in his eyes for you. He would see me through you.

Your coming would have been the beauty among the chaos. You presence would have quieted the storm. It would have been tough but your innocence would have made the journey easy.

Thank you. For even the littlest moments of joy thinking about you.

Tiwa, momma misses & loves you!


When he…

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Cant sleep. I think this is the worst ever!

Zero to a hundred! Now that’s understated!

I love you.

Girl! You ain’t supposed to cry! Chin up!

But this shit hurts! It hurts!

I’d hate to lose both.

I can feel the sourness already. 8am calls done. Inside jokes gone. Bubbly laughter from my belly ended. Fading scent of his manliness.

I’m losing my foothold! Help!

Girl! Chin up and handle this shit!

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We good. Pardon my bucketful! You can toss it.

Not a hundred. But I’ll take fifty over nothing.

Lets start over!

Hello, my name is Keji!


Me. You.

A depth beyond deep.
Emotions that transcends understanding.
A connection that defies distance.
Love created out of the unimaginable.

Me. You.

We were. We are.

In love.

All it takes

One decision can change your whole life. One. Just one! We are all one decision away from living absolutely different lives.

The toughest decision is one that affects the lives of others.

One decision to send a message can change a girls life all together.

One decision to go on a date can bring you into love forever.

One decision to listen to someone everyone deemed invaluable can make one wiser.

One decision to give that guy a chance can ruin your happiness forever.

One decision to keep that child can make you the mother of greatness.

One decision to damn everything and love against all odds, can bring you happiness.

One decision to damn everything and love against all odds, can put you in sadness forever.

One decision. One.

Decisions are however made by tough people. Make one today! Make the right one.

Even when you make a wrong one, never regret your decisions. Just make better ones.


Hey you!

You. Yes you!

Slow down. Time has rolled by and done its damages. We have loved and stepped out of its comforts. We are embraced by the warmth of other bodies. Reminisce and smile. Stop.

You. Yes you!

I loved you. But we just never could create a beauty out of the billions of affections transposed between our hearts. Oh how I wished upon the star of love and upon cupids arrow for an us to be!

Hey you. I have missed you. I miss you. Strange, how you still pull the strings of my beating heart!